Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Well, life has it's way of getting busy when you want to slow down, doesn't it?  I am in the process of preparing for my National Novel Writing Month challenge (nanowrimo) that starts November 1st and I am waiting for the second editing revision from the editor.  Once I get the edits back, I will have about a month to turn it around, maybe less.  As things get closer it feels like the pressure just increases.  I do not have a release date yet but can imagine that I might have some more answers after this next part of the process.

School is going good.  I am currently taking Child and Adolescent Psychology and Sociology.  I am on the Dean's list for the second semester but amazingly that just adds more pressure as well.  it is exciting to get that acknowledgment since I have always felt I missed out on a traditional higher learning experience when I was younger but now as an adult who is already established in her career, these types of events make me feel like I "have" to get a good grade or else it puts my experience in question.  Silly, I know but it is just thoughts that come up.  After this next semester is over..... in like 9 weeks, I will officially be a Junior in College.  LOL!!

Things are shifting in other areas too.  I am transitioning out of my position as the Clergy Weaver in FWTI so I can focus more on being the "Second" of the Board of Directors and acting Director of the Board right now.  I am excited to hand that position over to a very well deserving and talented person!  I am also getting ready to do my first ritual elevating someone to third degree.  This is a huge experience for me and I am very excited.  I am trying to plan it right now and look forward to the process.

other than that..... I am preparing for coming events.  I am looking forward to closing the year and beginning anew.  I am grateful for the opportunity to do so.  Last Saturday night I went to my monthly tarot group (Berkane Babes) and had a great reading done for me.  part of what the reading was saying was to feel confident that I could do this and also to step up to the plate and not be so concerned with others..... just do it.  In the words of the reader, "man up!".  So that is my mission over the next transition.






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"When you become aware of silence, immediately there is a state of inner still alertness.  You are present.  You have stepped out of thousands of years of collective conditioning" - Eckhart Tolle.   "Blessed Be oh Yemaya!! Yey Omo Eja" - "Mother Whose Children are the Fish"


Friday, October 02, 2009
The click of the wheel descends into a darkening spiral as we move into another phase, the shadow side of our land and of our lives.  With Samhain quickly approaching, it is the visual reminder that fall is here and death is coming.  I am not talking of physical death but of the death of the old to make way for the new beginning that will come when the land is ready to receive. 

For those who know me or have been reading my blog for a while, you know that although fall is my favorite time of year, the dark half of the year is always a hard time.  I have worked very hard to take the anxiety out of that time and am somewhat successful but I keep it a conscious thought that the coin flips over and I better be prepared. 

The inner reflection of the dark half is always hardest, looking inside at the emotions that are triggerd by the chain of events.  And although we all know that these events stretch us and help us grow, that does not take the sting out at the time.  Like with a tattoo, you know the ending will make a stronger and more beautiful you but the tattoo itself still hurts like hell. 

I have already seen the dark half working it's magic and shifting shadows where things are now revealed.  I already know that this will be a brilliant year for growth and pray it is not too painful for us all in the process but I feel the shift this year.  I feel the shift, not only in the earth but also in the energy of the human spirit and the struggle. 

As times are already hard while in the light, the anticipation of the dark is ever looming.  This has already been a challenging year for so many. 

As we prepare for the holidays, the death of the god, the dying sun.... let us remember that those things that keep us whole are the shields of love we build inside of ourselves and around us.  All things start from within and yet cultivating and recognizing the love and strength we have built within with our families and friends is also essential.  Take no one and nothing for granted, not even yourself and do whatever keeps you connected in love and joy.  And if patience is the key to all things then let love, compassion, acceptance, honor and peace be the door we get to open.

May you be blessed this coming season.











Hubbie and I

Hubbie and I